Never thought I’m going to say this but I fell out of love.
I had enough I guess, for once, I feel like I had done everything I could, I had given everything I could. And shame that he can’t even appreciate me.
This is a very familiar feeling you see. I can have all the feelings in the world for a person.
We will have a fight and argument, a little too much and one of those is going to stuck with me for a while.
Life would go by and one day, I will wake up and somehow I had convinced myself that I don't feel a thing.
PS: perhaps I'm arriving there now.
It is very hurtful. Well, everything is actually, but if be put like that then there’d be a high possibility of it occurring again and I don't even want to think about it.
That aside, love can be dumb. It can get messy, and not all can be very forgiving.
What do you do if the past of your relationship drags on to what you have now? The pinnacle of it all is a trust issue.
All I can promise myself is, in time it will be okay. At least I will be.
feeling a whole lot emptier than usual.
When thing’s not ok, surprisingly it's easier for me to assess the situation. It’s always been like that, I’d always be at my best when I’m being cold and inhumane.
Off all paths I’ve walked upon, this is the hardest, most joyous, most hurtful one. I can’t help but wonder what will be waiting for me at the end of the line? Will this be a happy ending? Or will this just be another thing I should learn from?
The gravity of the answer to that particular question scares me. A big part of it is because I’m never been good at choosing and calculating probabilities. I just bet whatever I have — all I have this time. Then, I’ve got nothing left but myself.
One of the jinxes I always believed in was about writing an article about how good it feels to be in love with someone.
But I want to do it for you. Amid the chaos that is our relationship, the giggles as we talk about our future plans, the saves…